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Hey all,
I’m better… No more sad.. for now. 
and Brian thanks for the love but, I did find a red head… he just wasn’t the one. I’m glad that Rhonda makes you so happy.
I actually found my red head.. it just didn’t quite work…
Yes but, after my blubbereing in the library I took my poor bike to my Woodland bike shop… and who do you suppose was there.. Yes Him He was sitting on the counter on the front of a magazine cover…In MY bike shop! I man behind the counter was not impressed that This was the guy who bought me my bike.. Oh no!… so in my haste to put that lovely face back I spilled the intire pile of mazines all over the floor and HE was everywhere…. 50 of him….. The guy helped me pick up the magazines and I left.. red faced, emotional… NEEDING a drink.
But I’m better today. I have that lovely female skill to be very emotional one and and just fine the next. Today I awoke, taught 44 students how to milk a cow and a goat.. then went on a 20 mile bike ride.
Was the ride easy.. no… I chuged along at 13 mpr ( VERY SLOW) with the help of a very kind riding buddy who was VERY supportive. The 20 miles made me realize a few very important things
1) I need padded shorts. My butt was killing me after the ride.. well during the ride really! After the ride I was quite numb.
2) Gloves! More padding! My hands go numb at mile 10 and I still have 10 more to go…. I’ve been told that gloves help with this numbness.
3) Look into clipped shoes. It turns out that clipping into you bike pedals is actually more efficient then one would think.. See I fall alot so I figured that not being able to pull my feet off the pedals would be a hazzard to my health. However, when you’ve clipped into the peddals you can not only push down to make the wheels turn but push up! So you’ve got extra power and I’m for all the help I can get!
4) I am in charge of my own destiny! If I can make plans with a new person to go for a 20 mile bike ride AND complete the ride!! I can do anything! Yes the strong, intellegent woman is back! Go team Erin! WOO HOO
Who needs men? Who needs relationships… I mean they really just end up failing, being boring and just SAD. So I choose me! I choose STRONG,….. I choose 20 miles of open road on a bike!!!!
I am a strong, intelligent female! This is a true statement that I repeat to myself all the time. Even more so when his little green light goes on. I spent the last year falling in love with someone so very wonderful. He’s smart, well read, up to date on political problem, ecological, so on and so on…… He ended my blissful world of fantasy when in February, 9 months of dating, family holidays, friend meeting, he says he doesn’t love me. and the strong, intelligent woman crumbles. I died. For someone who isn’t that important in the whole scheme of things. Someone who doesn’t love me doesn’t get to count..right. Why is it that months later I replay that scene in my head. I remember how that felt, I get teary eyed. and I compare every man in my vicinity to him.
I hate that men effect me so…. I have now fallen back into naughty phone calls with an ex. We have made it quite clear that this is only for sex, no boyfriend/girlfriend silliness. Which works out just fine… until I remember him… how I felt…how I feel. Not that my Marine and I can really be anything… we’d kill each other..but I want that feeling, that high of loving someone. Floating out of their house in the morning after rolling out of bed with the most glorious person you’ve ever met and knowing you’ll see them again and again… that is until they revel that they don’t love you… and never have….
Ug and I should be focused on Multivariate regression, estrogen in Sertoli cells and well to be quite honest finishing up alligator hormone work… but no.. he lingers. Tugging at my brain stem when I ride the bike that he got me… He’s pointing out Obama signs and mocking McCain… he’s there always. and I hate it!
So I’m writing.. because I’m sitting in the UC Davis Library waiting for my second hour of Multivariate stats today and crying… I’m crying! SO I sit and write.. to the void… to whoever reads this ( my darling friends) so that I can get a grasp on my pathetic behavior.
My bike fell of my car today… actually the whole bike rack fell off my car today. I picked it up and fixed it! I fixed it… put the chains back on and everything… this may not be an accomplishment for most but it was for me…. The wheels need to be trued??? so I’m taking it to my local bike shop to see if they can help.. all the Davis bike places are busy due to the bike auction this weekend. People buy crappy bikes and flood the bike shops to make them work.
All will be well… I get over these things..I have in the past ( usually after much emotion)…..
I just wish to be done with it all now! So I listen to Abba and type my woe.
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Woo hoo! The awesome Andy ( Cousin Laura’s husband) has out done himself! I now have a new door. a finished bedroom, with baseboards, and a refrigerator cubby. After ~ 8 hours of hard labor… more Andy’s labor… but I did paint my hallway.. Enchanted mist! I also got a new bed A simmons angelique… yes yes a $3000 bed that I got for $269!!! Yes yes isn’t that awesome!!! There was some crazy sale at the Macy’s Furnature Outlet this weekend that I have been waiting for! I have been sleeping on a futon for this whole time… not that uncomfortable but it’s not my big fluffy bed that I’m used too…. But now I have my perfect sale bed that I’m loving!! It’s like sleeping on clouds
This part of my life is going swimmingly.. I also made a date with a girl who I TA with to go on a long bike ride 20 miles can you imagine!! I’m biking 20 miles. I decided the UCD tri team was not for me… So I emailed the City of Davis Tri team ( The Mad Cows) and they were great! The VP of membership emailed me back and was very possitive about me joining… and he had a great quote on his email :
“I believe cars are the new second hand smoke.” D. Zabriskie
So we know that this is at least an enviro friendly group/person
So hopefully that should work well… First meeting is Novemeber 21, I have a ways to go.
Well that’s all for tonight
I was driving behind a car today anf their bumper sticker said “Don’t litter, Spay and Neuter”. An admirable all around suggestion for the way we care for our planet and for our pets. Yes this person was using a bumper sticker to combine two things she felt very deeply about…well enough to display it on her car. Yes she said “Nuts” to having the multitude of witty bumper stickers pasted all over her car. Using funny qups to spell out her anger about dirty sidewalks and an abundance of puppies.. was not this woman’s deal. No, simple and to the point. She has obviously decided her causes. I then watched her pull into a Jack in the Box. So obviously her cause was not health food, workers rights, or enivronmenal responsibility.
Which brings me to my question .. Which causes do you choose? I have environmentally friendly paint, and home cleaners, but I waste tons of water taking my luxsurious showers (~20 mins)…. I have spayed and neutered my pets but, I let my cats out sides.. very bad for the local wild birds ( although I don’t think they can catch them)… I recycle but I get those paper cups with my coffee in the morning instead of using my many reusable travel mugs. I read the BBC but I watch TV shows like Gray’s anatomy and I’m much more up on Meridth’s view on McDreamy then McCain’s view on farming subsidy.
Well I’m just trying to do my best.. I guess that’s all any of us can do. I mean no one is perfect.. everyone does something that’s not great for our plant/popultion/education and so on….
Okay well one person comes to mind…. but Mr. Perfect doesn’t count!
And really who wants to be perfect!
as long as this lady is Spaying and Neutering her pets AND not littering…she can eat whereever she wants…. most likely she’s doing better then most.
Hello all,
Thank you so much for supporting the idea that I am an athlete and yes I have done athletic activities in the past. I get a rush out of running, I really do get the runners high, and I’ve found I get a swimmer and cyclists high as well. What I don’t like doing is competing… I actually hate it! Much of the UC Davis Tri team is more focused on the race preparation ( which I do understand is important) and less on just working out and enjoying the rush of it all…. of course these people most likely get a rush out of the competition…..
I also recognize that while I like the idea of completing a Triathlon I was mainly joining this team to find friends ( more specifically find a new bike guy)…. and to tell you the truth I don’t fit in with these people. Lots of freshman, 18 year old kids just leaving home, living in the dorms… Trying to talk to them was hard..almost frustrating. The rest of the team was young yes but, very clique oriented. Trying to talk to them was like pulling teeth! UGGG and I’m easy to get along with!
So I will make a decision…considering that I don’t even have time to make it to group practices…I think as of this quarter I will not join the triteam. Never fear… I still am signed but for both the UC DAVIS and The city of Davis team work out schedule so I can work out in a group!
I will look into swim class ( through the university) for winter and the master’s swim, bike from Woodland to Davis on Mondays and Fridays, and run with Harley on Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday.
But I know myself…. and I have no desire to pay $125 to hide in a corner riding with Freshman on beach cruisers!
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I having been having a delima about ways to spend my time. Do I spend all of my free time sanding, spackling, painting, weed pulling,unpacking and cleaning? Do I spend my free time studying, reading,calculating, writing,grading, absorbing? Do I spend my free time biking, swimming, running, walking my dog, atempting to navigate the confusing UC Davis Tri team website? Do I spend my free time making friends, finding men, socializing????? and what have I been doing? A little reading, a little homework, a little paint prep, a tad bit of biking, some socializing and I hate to say it.. A LOT of TV. It’s a drug.. and it’s easy to do… very little thought goes into it.
I am going to work on being a better student, a better home owner, and GASP maybe a better athalete. Maybe…. I have to start with going to work outs… and none of them seem to fit into my schedule. Or do they not fit in because it’s not something I really feel comfortable doing. If I could easily fit in with this group maybe It would work…. my inner nerd comes out. The girl who never got picked for any sport team… How could I be on the tri team?
Deep breath.. I did fine on the 14 mile bike ride… actually I wasn’t even sore..
maybe I do have what it takes?
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I have a new door.. If you remember I had a brown interior door as an exterior door. Now because of my lovely cousin Laura and her amazing husband Andy I have a new door. One that has a key pad so I can get into my house even when I loose my keys! Yeah no more midnight phone calls to friends to come let me in to my house Woo hoo!! I have also finished painting my bedroom… Slowly but surely!
I have rode with the Davis Tri team this morning. I was in a group with mostly freshman. They were happy about Davis and excited to be here. I remember being them.. except I was miserable, missing home and feeling very much alone. I don’t feel quite so alone now, in fact I feel like trying new stuff, living new lives, opening new doors ( see I can tie back to my door). Even though very intimidated I think I will join the tri team.
Main reason fitness… alternate reason I said I would and really feel like I should follow through… So I’m going to try or ‘Tri” HA. I’m working on being a better person lately. Trying to be more understanding, be a better friend, less of a procrastinator, less messy (if that’s possible for me), more assertive and more true to myself. So far I’ve been more understanding and true to myself… It seems to be working. The bubbly, giggly always happy Erin does not exists.. okay, she exists but only in the smallest of senses. I like who I am..
and I love my door!!
Hello all,
Today was my first day as an Animal Science TA. I think it all went well… I start at 8am and when I arrived (15 mins before class) I realized I had no keys.. where would I have put them. I zipped back to my car thinking I’d left them in the trunk.. nope not there. Fearing for time I zipped back to class and borrowed another TA’s keys… not a good start. The rest of the lab went well, I taught inexperineced youth to wrestle sheep.. basically teaching them to pull them into a sitting position to examinations/hoof trimming/sheering and so on. Lots of fun for students.. not so much for sheep.
Did I find my keys? Yes, yes I did.. They were between the hood and windshield of my car, under the windshild wippers… What kind of a moron!!! grrr oh well at least I didn’t loose them.
It’s very strange being new to a campus you’ve been on before. I can imagine it’s what being pushed through time feels like. You feel the same but, everyone else around you is different ( but, the same). In my class I have the know it all livestocks girls, the small animal vet wanna be’s that HATE this production based system, the city folk who’ve never touched an animal in their lives and.. the students taking this as a GE. I feel like I know all of them.. but, I really don’t! I’ve done all of this before… odd.. makes one feel a bit lonely
But last night I found a friend.. well in the grad classes I’ve found friends but thisone reminded me of home! Stone beer!! It’s everywhere in San Diego.. I love it, love the brewery and it’s over priced food and everything!!
I found in here.. in the Nugget.. I lovely grocery store that has everything. It’s like a bug Trader Joe’s. I was walking through the isles and there it was Stone Bitter Chocolate Oatmeal Stout! My favorite They had lots of other fun stuff as well but, I was so happy I bought several different kinds!
And now they are staying cold… in my new fridge.. and I’m happy..ier
I’m going to the UC Davis Triathalon team meeting tonight in the hopes that
A) I won’t turn into the pigs I’m working with
B) I’ll meet environmentally friendly non meat eaters to keep me grounded in reality
c) I’ll get better at 3 different sports
Who knows…
Hope you’re all doing well! I miss you all
E
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I have a new fridge!! It keeps stuff cold and everything so now I can start buy food and well stuff! Now I just need an oven… I’m sooo very excited as you can tell!
Here it is! and yes that is a calender and an image of Beth!!
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Went to the San Francisco Zoo today with the Animal Biology Grad group. It was the end of the forced socialization week. Oh there will be more I’m sure but, the week of HELLO BE MY FRIEND, is now over. I have to say it was odd going to a zoo that I don’t have keys to. I didn’t know the names of all the animals or all the cute stories that go along with the names…. It made me miss my zoo. Yes, I miss my zoo! It happened, I figured it would eventually. I miss the animals, and the smells and the power that comes with that uniform. Today I spoke harshly to a little boy who was yelling at the Gorillas and then was Spoken to harshly by his mother…. I forgot I didn’t have the power to scold children at the zoo.
Ah well new start, new power!
On the way to the zoo our driver, a Sturgeon researcher, almost plowed us into several cars.. note: I have now found a worse driver then I could ever be!
HA
Tomorrow I get my refrigerator ( Thank you Laura!!!) The excitement I feel about being able to keep food in my refrigerator is better then anything I’ve ever felt! I’ll post photos I promise.
