I am 30 years old… soon to be 31 and I still feel and quite franky act like a 25 year old. How does that feel? How does a 25 year old act you ask? I’m not sure… Like someone who doesn’t have a care in the world. Someone with no responsibilities, no pressing matters. Someone who isn’t supposed to be studying for one of the biggest tests of her life! Yes I’m supposed to be knee deep, no waist deep reproductive physiology and toxicology. I should be stressed and desperately reading notes and reviews and thinking of nothing but my studies. What am I doing? I’m watching Netflix. The adventures of Lois and Clark… remember that lovely show. Only lasted as long as it did because Dean Cane was sooo lovely ….. Terrible writing, terrible plot, terrible acting! but I watch it.. I’m on season 2 now. Would a 30 year old person be doing this? I’m an adult…. I own a home.. I have two dogs and countless other pets (although this could also be a sign of Peter Pan syndrome). Am I trying to sabotage myself? Am I writing this silly thing instead of studying? UG I find I watch these silly shows wishing I could be like the independent strong woman…. Maybe because I watch shows that are also linked to extremely good looking men.. Maybe it’s the love I want to have not the independent strong intelligence held by the heroine in all these stories. Or maybe I’m just procrastinating… which would be the easiest answer.
My Mom was 30 years old when she was pregnant with me.. 31 when she had me. I don’t think I could be responsible for a child… I can’t even keep enough greens for my bunny. I can’t even study for this stupid HUGE test that I need to pass!! Or practice my presentation for tomorrow…
Will I also be a person who flies by the seat of her pants? Never planning/ studying/ organizing…. no hard work? always doing what’s easy… According to my therapist I am not living up to my values. I value intelligence and hard work…. but that’s not what I do…
Ah well maybe I should head back to Lois and Clark. If I’m lucky maybe some of that drive will sink in and I’ll start studying…. Or a gorgeous man in blue tights will show up at my door!
I was driving behind a car today anf their bumper sticker said “Don’t litter, Spay and Neuter”. An admirable all around suggestion for the way we care for our planet and for our pets. Yes this person was using a bumper sticker to combine two things she felt very deeply about…well enough to display it on her car. Yes she said “Nuts” to having the multitude of witty bumper stickers pasted all over her car. Using funny qups to spell out her anger about dirty sidewalks and an abundance of puppies.. was not this woman’s deal. No, simple and to the point. She has obviously decided her causes. I then watched her pull into a Jack in the Box. So obviously her cause was not health food, workers rights, or enivronmenal responsibility.
Which brings me to my question .. Which causes do you choose? I have environmentally friendly paint, and home cleaners, but I waste tons of water taking my luxsurious showers (~20 mins)…. I have spayed and neutered my pets but, I let my cats out sides.. very bad for the local wild birds ( although I don’t think they can catch them)… I recycle but I get those paper cups with my coffee in the morning instead of using my many reusable travel mugs. I read the BBC but I watch TV shows like Gray’s anatomy and I’m much more up on Meridth’s view on McDreamy then McCain’s view on farming subsidy.
Well I’m just trying to do my best.. I guess that’s all any of us can do. I mean no one is perfect.. everyone does something that’s not great for our plant/popultion/education and so on….
Okay well one person comes to mind…. but Mr. Perfect doesn’t count!
And really who wants to be perfect!
as long as this lady is Spaying and Neutering her pets AND not littering…she can eat whereever she wants…. most likely she’s doing better then most.
